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because of u [31 Aug 2005|01:33am] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | kelly clarkson ] I will not make the same mistakes that you did I will not let myself Cause my heart so much misery I will not break the way you did, You fell so hard I've learned the hard way To never let it get that far Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me Because of you I am afraid I lose my way And it's not too long before you point it out I cannot cry Because you know that's weakness in your eyes I'm forced to fake A smile, a laugh everyday of my life My heart can't possibly break When it wasn't even whole to start with Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me Because of you I am afraid I watched you die I heard you cry every night in your sleep I was so young You should have known better than to lean on me You never thought of anyone else You just saw your pain And now I cry in the middle of the night For the same damn thing   got alot on the mind... thinking about what i should do because i dont know how much its worth to b this upset because i cant see nor speak to him...  : / Tap That

yay [27 Aug 2005|01:32am] [ mood | pimp ] [ music | she paints me blue~SoCo ] ok so today .. vball was pretty decent then i took such a long nap cuz i was soooooo tired but it was nice . then i worked for 8 hours. which wasnt as bad as it could b cuz my sweet ass sweet friend was there except he burned himself hard core.... :( but im super proud of him cuz hes quitting somethign that is super bad for him(well thats what he tells me) i think it will b good for him but what do i know im just a friend looking out for him :) cousin/aunts bday tomorrow!!! 1 did... Tap That

[24 Aug 2005|12:39am] [ mood | u wouldnt get it. cuz i dont ] [ music | vertical horizon ] well since ive been home from cali its been decent. im super sore right now i dont know why. but doms dad told him i cant call anymore which was a little outragous. i saw my dad when i told him i wouldnt til he brok up with his ugly ass girlfriend.. i got my senior pics done i hope they look nice. and i went to go look at daemen college.. i liked it alot it was sweet,,work has been sweet and such.. i wish some of my friends didnt live in plastic bubbles and realize that no one is perfect because lately they have been rocked with some heavy stuff and they obviously cant handle it in an awful mood right now i dont know why.... 2 did... Tap That

[17 Aug 2005|12:31am] [ mood | calm ] [ music | ballad of the shitfaced lobsters ] ok well im home from cali which is kinda depressing.. yeah so cali is sweet.. san diego is the best i love surfing and i love the zoo.... yeah the zoo is sweet... its soo big and i love pandas... ok then we went surfing... its sooo extreme,,, yeah and kelly isnt very good.. and sea work is awesome.. and i fucking miss my little cousin already....hi(that was scott).. and my friends surprised me when i got home it was the best i missed them so much then i fucking had to take math b the next day... ok well i dont know what else to say "i'll b ur best kept secret and ur biggest mistake"..... !Wallens! donkey ridin' 1 did... Tap That

[01 Aug 2005|01:36pm] [ mood | yay for traveling ] [ music | Emma talking to me about feraris ] yeah so im leavign tomorrow for cali! el yay.. but im gonna miss everyone terribly.... i think lol no i will.. but u can still call my phone.. well u better or i will murder u!!!! :)..and this quiz thing is sweet cuz im like the italians!! aww i hope my friend is having fun. lucky bitch.... Your Inner European is Italian! Passionate and colorful. You show the world what culture really is. Who's Your Inner European? Tap That

OHHHH LORDY [29 Jul 2005|01:27pm] [ mood | GiDdY :) ] [ music | SPONGEBOB ] ok so last night was a little extreme... we had a botttle of tequila between 7 of us...and it got out of hand.. we were all going crazy.. nicky made the barbies have sex.. it was a little weird... and we ate lots of food and drank and did the hussle when someone said..DING.... and then i ended up in the back of my moms truck at one point and then we started to walk people home and my neighbor yelled things to us.. and then kelly threw up once and then her mom came to our house for some ungodly reason.. i hope shes not in trouble.. then i called ALEX BOZER :).... hes at the empire state games.. i guess they did pretty well and he was laughing at me cuz of how drunk i was.. but he said hes excited for europe but im depressed hes gonna b gone for so long..oh yeah and i called martha.. dont ask me what i said to her cuz i just dont know.. ROUND 3 of tequila. SUNDAYYYYY Tap That

craza [25 Jul 2005|01:09am] [ mood | woah! ] [ music | emmas voice ] sooo today i had to make dom breakfast cuz it was his bday(happy bday :) ..then we went over to his house to swim. then kelly came to get me and we went shopping i love shopping.. i got dom his foo fighters cd... and then kelly bought lots of make-up... then we we were pissed cuz we didnt find one god damn bathing suit we liked.. i was rattled im not gonna lie... oh and we went little caesar's for pizza and crazy bread.. that shit was good.... then i went to work and saw my friend al who just got back from colorado and montana... hes a little mad at me though.. then i chilled with dom and people for his bday... and south park is funny.. (TIMMY.. JIMMY?.. TIMMY)... lol ok im done <3 Ash Tap That

[21 Jul 2005|09:05pm] [ mood | going out of my mind ] [ music | listening to veronica tickle scott pink.. weird lol ] ok so today was a bad day.. i got into a car accident.. it was the worst thing thats ever happened.. im such an idiot and i cant believe i did that.. i so learned my lesson.. i never wanna drive ever again.. but i think things will b fine.... and thanks to my awesome friends that were there for me today when i was freaking out... i needed everyone there to calm my ass down.. the day did get better i played in a sprinkler chilled with sweet people and played yahtzee!!! i hope i get to see my one friend before he goes to italy/france/amsterdam cuz hes soooo awesome :).. "its been a bad day another bad day and all i wanna do is look and YOU and know im ok"... leave me something nice~Ashers~ 4 did... Tap That

oh boy [16 Jul 2005|12:04am] [ mood | super chilled out ] [ music | emma sipping bad flavored water ] so today.... i chilled with jesse and maugans.. thats always a good time. then i went to work which was quite amusing.. then me and emma walked around and such and then we chased rabbits and ate lots of ice cream YEAAAAHHH WE R CRAZA "nice to meet you anyways"..cant wait til we get to chill :) Tap That

BOY HUNTING WITH EMMA [11 Jul 2005|01:36am] [ mood | crazA ] [ music | listening to scott and veronica play 123flip ] ok my emma is freeee el yay for emma... ok i just lost THE GAME....that sucks ok so today was decent i got alot out that i needed to .... and then i worked with the coolest people ever then i chilled with some sweet ass sweet people.... after kevins baseball game ... i made scott and veronica miss his home run.. :( sry lol.. ok umm i dunno why im in a good mood but i am... <3 Ashers Tap That

THe Beach Is Awesome... and creepy 30 yr olds r... CREEPY [07 Jul 2005|06:08pm] [ mood | hahahah people r funny ] [ music | ONLY WANNA B with U...HOOTIE..7/23 :) ] ok so today was a good day.. me lani emma and kelly went up to Mickey Rat's beach up in angola.. we got lost getting there but we had fun.. first we got the cooler stuck in the trunk... yeah dont ask questions...then we got on the beach and drank brews played in the water.. did some frisbee.. the wind totally ruined my frisbee experience.. and we played some fubar...ok so coming home was the interesting part... we r just driving minding our own business then these like 30 yr old guys tried to get us to flash them and we wouldnt so then the best looking one out of all of them(and he looked like some dirty italian i know in 15 yrs.) mooned us.. yeah it was special. and they followed us for forever and when we got to the toll they got out of the car and they were like "show us on the thurway".. yeah it was special..so now me and emma r sitting here listening to HOOTIE!!!!!!!!! kk well i dunno whats going on tonight but yeah Tap That

PUTT PUTT FOR THE FUN OF IT! [07 Jul 2005|01:45am] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | sexual healing/lets get it on (GAVIN DEGRAW STYLE) ] ok so the beginning of the day was ok.. woke up at emma's and drove anne to work.. then when i went home.. my mom was being crazy and being ultra mean and i was like whatever i dont wanna deal with u.. then work was funny for some reason... Thanks AL for the funny pic on my phone.. and i told everyone about my horrible dream about Creepy Karl at work lol... then i came home and me kelly lani emma willie and ian decided that we r going to play putt putt.. emma and willie soooo cheated lol but its ok i forgive them.. and ian lost his ball on the first shot.. nice one ian!...then we watched some intense kid play DDR... he wasnt even looking at the screen..!!! it was like woah ok so tomorrow brews and the beach with my girls!!!yay "ive been really trying baby, trying to hold back this feeling for so long, and if u feel like i feel baby., c'mon.. OH c'mon.. LET's get it on" 3 did... Tap That

shirtless thursday can suck it .. it doesnt exsist... [30 Jun 2005|11:52pm] [ mood | EL yay for the beach ] [ music | FOO FIGHTERS ] yeah so i went to the beach today and ive never burned in my life and i did today.. OWW it hurts.. but we had so much fun.. we made a huge sand penis.. lani perfected the balls lol while me emma and katey made the SHAFT.. lol then we played frisbee and SEA WEED wars lol.. we did taunt brandi with the sea weed...then we all wen tout to dinner.. sweet lord i thought i was going to burst i ate so much.. it was a good day with the girls very tired.. BEACH ALL WEEKEND WITH JOE NICK ZINA AND SCOTT!!!!!!!!!!! :) i want him to come home from Virginia Beach :( (stupid Soccer) "AM i more than u bargined for yet ive been dying to tell u anything u want to hear cuz thats just who i am this week"~FOB Tap That

acoustic #3 [29 Jun 2005|01:18am] [ mood | indescribable ] [ music | goo goo dolls ] they painted up ur secrets.. with the lies they told to you and the least they ever gave you was the most you ever knew and i wonder where these dreams go when the world gets in your way whats the point in ever trying nothing's changing anyway..~Goo Goo Dolls sry i really like that song just got some stuff on the brain.. otherwise it was a good day Tap That

the track? [28 Jun 2005|01:28am] [ mood | oh boi..!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ] [ music | Backstreet boys...dont ask ] ive done a bad thing on the track.. right emma? camping was sooooo much fun... i'll sum it up a little... Karl calling someone a pansy, jason-"u killed the dream", random kevin kid- YEA RENA(while jumping around) ...... beers with kenny and emma.. bloddy marys at 9 AM. row boats random entertaining guys karl jumping down the cliff... sneaking out of my camper.. emma its going down.. TONIGHT! BUG ZAPPERS HURT like woah. bocce is sweet ass sweet i love swimming and beer pong is awesome We'Re going again tuesday night.. who wants in!?!?!?!?!? Tap That

sketchy [24 Jun 2005|12:42am] [ mood | sketched out..minds r dumb ] [ music | Gavin ] just in a weird mood.. thinking about stuff from the past.. kinda miss some stuff ya kno?? but otherwise.. great day chillin ANDERSONS(katey the ice cream was the best) GOLF WITH EMMA JESSE KATEY AND DOM... yeah we suck Maugs house nice night "its been to hard living, but im afraid to die... cuz i dont know whats up there beyond the sky is there.. a long time coming but i know A change gonna come .. oh yes it will"~Gavin DeGraw Tap That

superheros?? [22 Jun 2005|12:12pm] [ mood | weird ] [ music | the batman theme in my head lol ] batman is the sweetest superhero in the world.... :) ok well math B tomorrow is gonna suck... aaaaahhhhh Tap That

US history? [21 Jun 2005|11:28am] [ mood | high like ] [ music | where is the love???-->i dont ask questions ] ok im about to go take my exam and here r my thoughts 1. its gay 2. barnum's hair is funny 3. i wanna go golfing 4. ive got nothing ~~~~randomness~~~~ 1 did... Tap That

the presents just a pleasant ineruption to the past~SoCo [20 Jun 2005|01:47am] [ mood | strange...BEH?? ] [ music | Konstatine... best part "i can spell Konfusion with a K" ] so i dunno im just in a mood to write some stuff... Random thought of the day: ~~have u ever had the feeling where u thought something was right in the beginning and u slowly realize that its not and that theres something else u want more??(argh)~~ **i love drinking and getting to know how people really feel about u** &&&&my friends and i have some messed up theories&&& ! PB and J is the best invention in the world ! (( i have got to be the worst daughter in the universe)) ^^God hates women more than men.. he makes us bleed and become emotionally crazy^^ %%breakthrough with friends r always good%% @@@ Batman is the best@@@ i think im blabbing 3 did... Tap That

rock and roll is the best thing ever [16 Jun 2005|11:08pm] [ mood | oo sexy kinda ] [ music | "sugar we're going down" ] it was just a good day... i dont know how else to put it.. "tempted by the fruit of another... tempted but the truth is discovered"~Squeeze **cant wait for the weekend** 1 did... Tap That

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